Life without Apu, 2021

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 It's almost been a year since you left for your heavenly abode. Are you still watching over me?



I would think of you from time to time and the world keeps on reminding me that you are not here anymore. The world has become the loneliest it can be, and my heart goes on searching for you. But is this how the rest of my life is going to be like?



I know you are somewhere beautiful you had always dreamed of going, and I am so happy for you. But it's just that life without you is not treating me so well to the point I sometimes question my entire existence. I am barely holding it together for I know my God took you home (to be home with Him)because HE didn't want His angel to suffer anymore. I would tell myself that God didn't think the world deserves you anymore so, He sent for you. That way, I'm able to seal my pain with a smile.

That is how a year without has been for me. Sounds tragic, right? Long story short, I miss you, Apu. 

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